Dear Readers.
This cross season has been a magical one. Maybe my favorite season ever. This maybe in part because I wasn't sure it was going to happen. Recovering from tendinitis it was July before I could really start to train again. But I'm proud to say it came together. As Mr. Featherman had said, I felt like I earned my button in the 45+ class, and frankly put up results that I did not expect. I have had great time racing this year.
I have said this here before, and I know this to be true:
I have been fortunate enough to know truly great bike racers. I am not a great racer. I am your team's midpack masters racer. My friends that are great racers have a burning desire to win. They
need to win. I do not need to win. I need to fight. I need to battle. I need to scrap and claw. I need to struggle. I want to earn your respect. This year every race has been a battle. Every race a fight. Every race I have suffered, and knew that if I let up, if I screwed up, I'd lose the group, lose who knows 5 spots. It has been fucking marvelous.
While Stevens, Featherblog, Trevor, Meismer, and Bothel are arguably the next group, they remain close enough in my line of vision that I consider them my extended group. I have battled much closer with Johan, D-Lowe, Charles, Dave Grant, Benny (on an abbreviated season), Werner, Thayer, and Lanza this season.
I would be remiss if I didn't point out my teammates that I have been honored to race with. I don't feel as if I have battled with then, because frankly, it has been calming, and fun to race with John and Mr. Joe. On more than one occasion Luxy has told me to be cool, or patient, something that I'm historically not known for...We encourage each other, and all push to get the best out of our team. We help each other in the groups. Don't ever let anyone tell you there aren't team tactics in cross, and if your teammates don't work with you, well you might be on the wrong team...
but I digress:
I've done 11 races this year....
8 of those races (New England included) my position wasn't settled with half a lap to go
8 of those races I came to the line with more than one member of the group sprinting...
a couple of folks have asked me the difference between 35+ and 45+. I'll say this, I do think the 35+ is faster. The front guys generally cause that race to explode. That said, 45+ is much deeper, much more tactical, and from my standpoint more fun based on the group riding. Moving up to the 45+ this year has been a tough learning curve, that frankly reminds me of moving up from the killer b's to the 35+...
But I digress again:
It has been amazing, fun, stressful and exciting year... I know every weekend is going to be a battle...
I am a consummate over-trainer. However, I believed coming off injury that I had learned my lesson. I was very measured. I have been really careful. I tightly monitored my efforts, my riding time, my KJs. I took days off. I iced after every ride. Rice was my mantra (Rest, Ice, Compression, and Elevation)When in doubt, I left it out.

Last Saturday was Fairhill CX. One of my favorite courses- a cross racer's cross race. This year's version was the best yet. I had a disastrous first lap, I pulled into the pit taking a bike from Bob Joos, who encouraged me, "the group is right there, you can get back!" as he set me back on course. I battled back and unbelievably caught up to my normal group with 3 to go. I have never been known for great come backs, but I made it through and to the front 3 of our pack. As I came to the final corner I was hanging onto DLowe's wheel, I was running on fumes, and knew Werner and Lanza were waiting to pounce. I came around Dave, stood and sprinted for the line, emptying the tank. Unbelievably, I won our four man sprint for the line. It was in my opinion my best race of the year. I was beyond stoked.
Sunday morning, my knee didn't feel right. I did two laps of the sly fox course, and on the run up, something really didn't feel right. I decided to not race.
Monday I couldn't walk up and down stairs without pain.... I had some swelling, and frankly knew the pain all too well.
Today, while my compatriots are speeding towards Kutztown, I'm sitting here at my kitchen table, having not ridden since Sunday, with ice on my knee, anti-inflammatories in my system, drinking coffee. I'll admit my attitude is not the best, I'll admit I've been eating my feelings a little bit.
Just when I think I have this thing figured out... Just when I think I know how to manage it. It appears that I know nothing.
I'm grateful for the season I have had, but I'm not ready to be done. I refuse to believe that right now. I just can't get enough...
thanks for reading...
respect
fatmarc